a sudden sense of loneliness now.
missing laogongong so damn much.
he went johor again. this time earlier.
unable to have a hearty chat with him before he went in.

i suddenly realize
how much i lurve him.
how much i have devote my heart for him.
how much he mean to me.
how much i will miss him if he is not there.
how much worries do i get if he is angry with me.
how much emptiness i will feel when i am not with himtoday.

most of the time. i am thinking of him
no mood to work.
no mood for everything.
even when i smile, i feel an emptiness in my heart.

actually quarrel really can make me feel how much i wanted him.
so happy i actually fell in lurve with a guy for once.
wholeheartedly.
so laogongong. dun leave me okies??



yesterday. laogongong and laopopo announce 7mths together lers.
i know we have gone thru alot.especially this months.
where you have to listen to all my nonsense.
where you have to bear with my princess's temper.
where you have to hong me.
where you don't know what to do to make me not
so angry.sorry sorry.

but now i change for the better.i promise.
now i leanrt about what you want and what you lurve and what you hate.
so now is my turn to pray that i will not be silly enough to do anything t
hat would actually hurt anyon of us.

i would not use our relationship to be played like a game.
and never would anyone step into our relationship.if anyone dare.
kill me first. SERIOOUS!~

lurve laogongong alot alot.
no matter what.we will stay strong until the year come for us to leave the world.

laogongong. promise me. e
ven how hard i cry. tell me the truth so i can understand.
even how hard i teared. listen to me and understand me more

.lurve you. and forever and forever.
not seeing you one day is dreading for me.