i was reading this blog.
http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com
(about an army guy who passed away in brunei, due to training)
*damnsad*

it make me feel more blessed everytime
i wondered what i will do if i just loss my boyfriend like this
(don't say i break up with him larhs)
like he suddenly gone missing.

not say for months.
even for seconds. i will start to feel lost.

when we are doing shopping.
and i am looking through the clothes.
den when i raise up my head. & realise he is gone
i felt lost too. like a part of me is gone.

even yesterday. he went his friends wedding dinner.
and left me at home doing nothing.
i am damn sad. i duno what to do.
lik a part of me is gone.

am i too depended on him or what?
can he stay with me forever
maybe that is my fear!

of may be not?!
maybe I fear that I will leave him one day
maybe I fear that My lore for him will he lost one day!

no matter what.
my love for him now will nebeer be gone!
FOR NOW!